I recently saw a post from the Ugly Shoes Club which is for parents who have lost a child. It was about seasons and how losing a child brings about a new kind of season. It’s not a happy season like Christmas , Easter or Thanksgiving. It’s a season of sadness and the most gut wrenching pain ever. It takes everything we have to make it through our season. Everything sparks our memories and our bodies start to feel it before we even realize it. We remember that day completely as if it just happened yesterday. For a month I have been in my season. This year it started earlier than it ever has. I am not sure why but then again nothing about this club that I find myself in makes any sense. 3 years ago today my life changed forever. Three years ago today my son took his life. I would think just about everyone would have a season with someone they lost. I guess the key is to remember that there is a season and that its going to come every year no matter what. Let it move through you as gracefully as you can. Give yourself space to just be with it and yes, some may not understand and that’s ok! We have to take care of ourselves, no matter what that looks like. I wish peace to all of us going through this and may we be guided as gently as possible as we navigate our seasons.